I'm a free woman

I have officially quit treatment and refused a residential facility.  Only one of my friends knows about this, no one in my family.  I saw how all my doctors reacted and I just don't see the point in telling anyone else and putting them all in a frenzy too.

Well, the anxiety of all of this couldn't have been better for my eating and exercise!  I worked out so much and ate so little I almost passed out at the gym multiple times and was super lightheaded and pretty shakey. I LOVE THAT FEELING!

My Day Yesterday: 

Meds:
-Only took 200 mg of my mood stabilizer (75 mg less than prescribed), didn't take Antabuse, 25 mg of Adderall XR
-I took all of my vitamins
-3 laxatives, stool softeners, herbal laxatives (senna, a girl's best friend)

Food: Total Calories: 300
-breakfast: Plain cereal (around 90 cal)
-lunch: 3 bites of a Subway Veggie Delight (probably 60 cal tops)
-dinner: a few bites of turkey sausage and brown rice... lots of comments and stuff from my roommate. I know she just cares but I can see the fear on her face. (maybe 150)

Exercise: Total Calories burned: 1030 (estimated)
-1 mile run in the AM (I'd say -105 calories)
-Gym: 1 hr 20 min on the elliptical, with a hoodie on, 1 mile walk/jog on the treadmill, 30 min stretching (-800)
-1.5 mile walk home from the gym (around -125)

Total calories intake: 300
Total calories burned: 1000
Net: -700 :)

Today's Plan:

Not sure what my food plan is for today.. little tricky because I have a business lunch and it's Friday so you never know where that will take me after work.  AH! Will report back but I want to stay under 700 cal today.

Taking the day off from the gym to let my body/muscles recover so that the weekend will be even better for working out!  And I'm going to get a mani/pedi after work to reward myself for all my hard work yesterday, in all aspects of my life! :


I hope you all are having as much success as I am this week.  I really had to push it this week since I leave for a business trip on Sunday and usually when I'm traveling and working late my eating gets really bad (just eat shitty food, try to purge as much as possible but it never ends up being good enough).  Last time I traveled is when I gained 3 lbs back.  Going to keep that from happening this time. :)


xoxoL