119.3 today!

Hello from Chicago,

I woke up this morning and weighed myself -- 119.3 lbs!!  I broke through 120!! I had a few good days, ate minimally and threw up anything I did eat. But, last night I had a salad, a few bites of mac and cheese, and some chocolate cake but purged all throughout eating it so that hardly anything stayed in.  I'm so happy that it didn't destroy me. And, I didn't even go to the gym yesterday.

I've been averaging 4 laxatives per day... a little concerned that it's going to make it so that I can't go by myself but right now I'm just more concerned with getting it all out of me as quickly as possible.  My skin is getting worse and I definitely now have bruising and dry skin on my knuckles but I don't care because that won't matter when I'm super small. 

I haven't been taking my prescribed doses of my meds and I also haven't been eating well but surprisingly my moods have been pretty stable. I guess my period being over is what helps that mostly.  No cutting, no mania, no depression.  Just lots of purging and restricting.

Hope everyone else is having a good day and looking forward to the weekend.

xoxoL