Cleanse/fast begins tomorrow

This weekend wasn't great and when i weighed myself today I was back up to 123... I'm really not happy.  I've been eating a lot but purging most of it and have been taking laxatives but I feel like they aren't working.  Today I took 6 throughout the day so hopefully that will work...

Tomorrow I'm starting my cleanse/fast.  I was going to do the isagenix cleanse and i ordered it but it didn't come (UPS lost it or something).  So, I've researched some alternatives so that i can still do the fast that i was planning.  I really need to kick a lot more weight so that I can be happy.  Also, is it bad that I want people to be concerned with how skinny I am?  I want everyone I see to say something about how skinny I am.  I want people to look at me and think i'm "disgustingly thin" or "emaciated." 

So... my cleanse/fast begins tomorrow.  I'll be blogging everyday so you can follow my journey.

My 7-day Fast:
- Only water, tea, and juice (if 100% necessary)
- Morning: Psyllium and bentonite (colon cleansers)
- During the day: Multivitamin/dietary supplement (I'm using One A DayWomen's Active Metabolism because I have it, but there are many other options), wheat germ (replenishes Vitamin E), Vitamin C, Whole Beet Plant Juice (helps with energy, high in iron, calcium, and potassium)
- Night: Herbal supplement of cascara sagrada, aloe powder, and licorice root (cleanses colon)
- Run 1-2 miles per day, stretch everyday (maybe yoga?)


Note: I'm probably going to take adderall everyday to curb my appetite.  This could trigger a manic episode (especially because I haven't been taking all my meds) but I'm OK with that.  When I'm manic, I don't get hungry. Actually, I'm completely repulsed by food (ahh something new?).  At least it removes all chances of a binge! 


Wish me luck! 

xoxoL